Diagnosis

Having a baby is not easy for hubby and me.

We have been visiting the doctor for a couple of months. Hubby and I have been trying to conceive but to no avail.

There are no words to express how frustrating it has been for us. For me, especially. I don't think I'd ever feel fulfilled until I hold our baby in my arms.

Once, our director asked a bunch of us, what would we want to be if money was no issue. Some of the folks answered a photographer or an owner of a small business. Me? I replied with, "A mom."

I knew since I was 20 that having a baby will be difficult for me. Being diagnosed with not ovulating, ob-gynes told me to get married soon and start having babies at the age of 25. It seemed like a lifetime then and I didn't want get saddled down too early. I thought that science would catch up and cure me.

Almost ten years later, I know I made a good decision. Else, I wouldn't have married the love of my life. But a part of me wish I met hubby years earlier and we would have about 3 kids by now.

I have 11 more days to wait to actually find out.

Else, it will be another series of medicines. Another series of tests. Possibly A.I.