Christening = Motherhood

Today, hubby and I went to two christenings. Luckily for us, they were at different times.

I was able to carry the baby boy but not the baby girl. At six months, the baby boy is about 10 kilos. Really heavy. Really cute baby boy. I could almost imagine carrying my hubby's replica (of course, not his six feet three inches stature.)

Today, more than ever, I wanted to be a mom. So much so that I can almost taste it.

Maybe it's cause of my looming resignation in the very near future that makes me feel we can have a baby.

Weird isn't it? No work means less money. Less money means we might not be able to support the baby as much as we could now. But no work means no stress.

Weighing the odds, which one really does matter?

Little Miss Please

On Monday, I should be flying out to KL with my hubby on a business trip. We were both supposed to attend training but as mentioned in my previous post, boss#1 didn't allow me.

Instead, I will be home alone. Stuck with a project that I don't believe in. Stuck with the Program Manager who I hate beyond hell. I never realized how tupperware I have become over the last 5 years until now.

I think she's a nice person (outside work.) She's sweet to her friends and she's pretty accomodating.

I just can't stand her when it comes to work. She thinks she has the hard end of the bargain. But half of the time, she offloads to me with her damsel in distress look that makes me really sick.

WTF.

To cite an example, earlier today she asked me to comment on a report she will be sending management, that highlighted the activities I have been doing for the past two months. I made my comments and sent her my reply at 1:40pm.

Only to find out that when she sends her report at 3:40pm, she didn't change a word that she initially wrote and totally disregarded my comments. It would have been OK, you would reason, after all she did just ask me to comment.

However, with her statements, she made it sound like I didn't do anything at all.

Grrrr...

Now her director emailed my director and basically highlighted the situation.

So tell me, don't I have the right to get pissed off?

I wish I would just be allowed to train in KL and let her project burn in hell.

Emotionally Battered

I am not an emotionally battered wife. I have no problems with the home front whatsoever.

I am, however, an emotionally battered employee.

I have not been known to take insulting words quietly. I guess being married to a co-worker made me more conscious of how I should react to the people at work.

But it doesn´t mean that my boss should treat me the way she´s been treating me lately. I feel such a worthless employee despite the efforts I gave to The Company last year. Sometimes I feel like I a waste of cubicle space.

Having two bosses is enough to cause physical (and emotional) drain, considering both of them expect a 100% of your time and effort. It´s worse when it affects your rating. Apparently, 50-50 means you only get 50% as the highest grade. A 3 out of 5.

It pains also to find out that out of three employees under two bosses, each one of us gets a rating of 1, 2, and 3, with 1 being the highest. Despite my project launches, I still get a three. Part of me thinks boss#1 resented the fact I went to Europe last year. While boss#2 is not happy that I´m not on top of the Rainbow, like my two other teammates.

Sometimes I think I´m not being paid enough. Definitely I feel I am not valued enough.

I mentioned this to boss#2, who doesn´t seem to have a vendetta on me. She´s laying off some of the duties considering the burden. I´m giving it a month.

After which, I will decide to hand in my resignation.

Cozy Condo

A yearly event, my cousins and I would go to a coffee shop every January 1. This has been a tradition for at least 10 years now. After spending a couple of hours in Greenhills, my cousins decided to spend the rest of the afternoon at our condo.

This was brought about by the desire to watch Justice League and eat my pasta.

One of my cousins brought along a friend who had the bestest camera I have ever held. I'm no pro, but I know it's a DSLR. I wish to get one of those when I get to Singapore.

Given such beautiful camera, I decided to take pictures of our small and cozy 1 bedroom unit.





I love our home.

Happy New Year

I hope this year will be better than ever! :)

The Year That Was

2008 was an eventful year. I think back and realize I have experienced and achieved so much, especially with my hubby.

One of the things I love to do is to travel. Unbelievably, I had the opportunity to go to Europe, specifically Frankfurt (Germany), Lucerne (Switzerland), and Paris (France), with a stopover at Dubai (United Arab Emirates). Locally, I got the chance to travel to Davao with my hubby's family, and go back to Boracay, also with his family.

I got to move out of my parents' house and live with my hubby in a 1 bedroom condo unit, owned by my in-laws. It's not half-way between our parents' homes but at least is in the middle. I got the chance to decorate our home and buy appliances and kitchen stuff, especially in IKEA. Yes, I have discovered the beautiful shop of IKEA that made me and hubby go home with excess baggages.

In line with being married, I have learned to cook. And after a year, I realize I´m a pretty good one. Maybe it´s cause my husband says so, but I think our expanded waistlines are proof enough.

It's in the year of 2008 that we both had ourselves checked in preparation for the baby. We are actually on our 3rd doctor but we have a pretty good feeling about this. We hope to have a baby by this year. Hubby is insisting it will not happen unless I am stress-free or I resign.

My greatest achievement is quitting smoking. It´s been awhile since I have taken my last puff. Everyday is still a trial. My boss tells me that it will be two years before the longing totally disappears and within this period, I am likely to go back. I´m optimistic that it will not happen to me.

Being married has its ups and downs. We celebrated our first year anniversary earlier this December. One thing is for sure, we´re in this for the long haul.

I hope 2009 will surprise me as a better year than 2008 was.

Valentine's Day in Singapore

Lo and behold! I saw an email notification in my personal mail that Cebu Pacific has offered another set of zero fares.

I have been wanting to go out of the country for the last four months. Every time I check, there's the zero fare. But come that time that I book, there's none available. I had badly wanted to go out of the country on my birthday but I guess it was not meant to be.

We, hubby and I, are spending less than half of what we would have spent had we decided to taking the trip. I didn't ask permission anymore to my bosses and took the plunge of booking and buying on the spot.

Hubby didn't know what to do anymore as he was powerless to say "no" to my pleadings. To make up for it, I promised him that he wouldn't be getting his anniversary, Christmas, birthday gift, and Valentine's gift early. Instead, he would have an option to get PS3 or a mini laptop, whichever he would like. (I was supposed to get him locally for the holidays, but I decided, since he knows better than me, I might as well let him pick his own "gift".)

I'm so giddy.

I'm going to Singapore. I'm going to Singapore. I'm going to Singapore.

For the weekend of Valentine's Day, we will be out of the country.

Happy, happy, joy, joy.