Emotionally Battered

I am not an emotionally battered wife. I have no problems with the home front whatsoever.

I am, however, an emotionally battered employee.

I have not been known to take insulting words quietly. I guess being married to a co-worker made me more conscious of how I should react to the people at work.

But it doesn´t mean that my boss should treat me the way she´s been treating me lately. I feel such a worthless employee despite the efforts I gave to The Company last year. Sometimes I feel like I a waste of cubicle space.

Having two bosses is enough to cause physical (and emotional) drain, considering both of them expect a 100% of your time and effort. It´s worse when it affects your rating. Apparently, 50-50 means you only get 50% as the highest grade. A 3 out of 5.

It pains also to find out that out of three employees under two bosses, each one of us gets a rating of 1, 2, and 3, with 1 being the highest. Despite my project launches, I still get a three. Part of me thinks boss#1 resented the fact I went to Europe last year. While boss#2 is not happy that I´m not on top of the Rainbow, like my two other teammates.

Sometimes I think I´m not being paid enough. Definitely I feel I am not valued enough.

I mentioned this to boss#2, who doesn´t seem to have a vendetta on me. She´s laying off some of the duties considering the burden. I´m giving it a month.

After which, I will decide to hand in my resignation.